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Jazak Allah Khair for all your help, brothers and sisters.

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Salamalaikum,
I came across a list of mosques in New York who are holding daily online sessions for Quran Recitation. Sadly this year we won't be able to pray Taraweeh together in Mosques due to COVID-19, this list can be really helpful for us to connect with our favorite mosque remotely List of Mosques offering online Quran Recitation Sessions

We usually have the habit that when we finished our recitation of the Quran or Surah, we kiss the book and bring it to our heart. Do we do the same to our iPad/Tablet/Laptop? Just curious.

I am a Muslim, I do not hate you, I love you, Islam has pushed me to becoming a better person. 10 years ago I was in the deepest and darkest moment of my life, and then Islam came, and I do not care about what you think about it. I will hear, and I will speak, as long as you are willing to speak with me. I have tons of Muslim and Non-Muslim friends, I have donated over 1300 dollars to agency cares in Yemen and Mali, and everyday I smile in happiness.
You don't tell me how happy I am, and neither do I tell you that, we are Human Beings.
You are an Ex-Muslim and I still love you.
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What I just wrote is true, but not everything. I have been visiting this subreddit and learned a lot of things, I finally pushed myself to make a post, and I really hope I do not get backlash. I think this subreddit reveals some of the major problems with Islam and many people have shared their experiences. So let me register my story first.
I was born in Boston, USA, to a Muslim family in Morocco. I am a born Muslim but I still consider myself a convert, for one reason. I really did not devout myself as a Muslim until I was 12, no prayer, no Quran, no Hadith, nothing. Although I was given numberous Muslim values.
At my early teen years I was given a ton of stress, most of my family lived in Morocco and Annaba, and I only got to see them once every 1-3 years. During those times, I would undergo a relieve sensation, as if all the stress just vanished. I would see my cousins praying and reading the Quran, and I felt a bit insecure as if I was an embarrasment to my family. I spoke with some of my closest cousins about it, they secretly taught me how to pray and read non-Darija Arabic. When I came back from Morocco, the stress came to me, so I made an dua to Allah (swt) asking that I would find a way to combat my educational stress, as well as my complying depression. That was the first time where I truly prayed as a Muslim, and recited the Sahada, 2 days later, I read a transcript online about Sharia Law in other Muslim Countries. The stoning and execution of non muslims, I felt so saddened by it and wanted to quit my ever so growing compassion towards Islam right there. I instead decided to pray again, and read the Quran, my parents saw me, I was tearing up on the rug, I went to sleep afterwards denying them anything.
I woke up at 5 AM in the morning, turned on the television I had, and saw as live protests occured throughout Libya, and I recall it being one of the most happiest moments of my life. I visited Tunisia with my Dad in October and celebrated with the crowds over the end of the brutal Libyan Islamic Regime. Since then, I have been practicing Islam, and have relieved a lot of stress, as well as got rid of Depression and was granted a scholarship.
I love this subreddit because it helps me take in the experiences of people who have lived in the hardship of Islam, and were not able to practice nor fortunate experiences due to Sharia law. It wants me to do everything in order to improve the religion and the activists who follow it. I have spoke with many Non-Muslims and Sheikhs in local Connecticut mosques over verses of the Quran.
Never lie to your followers over harsh verses in the Quran, instead make sure to tell the active Muslims who are visiting your mosques to learn about the religion. SO NO, DO NOT HIDE ANY VERSES OF THE QURAN, reveal them and explain whats radical about them and why not to follow them.
This is my first post here, and I am constantly learning new things, And yes, I am somewhat proud about be circumised (dont ask why).
Note: There may be a bunch of grammar and error mistakes in this post, I apologize for that. Love you all! I wish you all a good future, and stay snazzy.
Edit: I am an idiot and forgot to include LGBTQ + into this, so I apologize.
A major problem with Islam is the treatment and opinions of LGBTQ+ peoples, I hate watching Imams and other religious figures constantly starve talk these people of right. In major Muslim countries people are steer talking their children onto this and it annoys me.
Fortunately, western media is exposing this and more younger Muslims in Western Countries are seeing through this. It is still not major though, and more needs to be done to stop these selfish and disgusting opinions from spreading to the younger generation of Muslims.

Hello all, I am interested in reading Sahih Bukhari to learn more about the Muslim faith. (Full disclosure - I am not a Muslim, but am nonetheless interested in learning about its beliefs and history). I’m particularly interested in reading through Volume 6, as it appears to provide the most commentary on the early history of the recitation of the Quran.
My dilemma: so far the only English translations that I’ve found online (sahih-bukhari.com and sunnah.com) are a bit confusing to read. Are there other translations available online that one would recommend?

Our time is limited, so why spend time doing something we know we will regret?
For many, its the short term feeling of satisfaction that can't get them to stop. Maybe when you have free time or are looking for a source of entertainment. But when will we realize that we can spend our free time in better ways and satisfy ourselves from other means?
So let's say you finished what you have done for the day and have free time that you may want to use. Instead of wasting it doing you know what, here's a list of things you could be doing:

1. Why not improve your connection with Allah? Go and pray salah. Try nafl salah (like tahajjud) if you are good with your fardh
2. Outside of salah, why not engage with the book of Allah? You can listen to some quran recitations, here's one quran recitation I recommend
3. But if you want to take some action and earn hasanat, you can also recite the Quran. For a few minutes, try reading the quran, maybe with a translation too. Ever curious about what Allah has written for us? Why not have a look?
4. Outside of the kitab of Allah, there are endless other books you can try reading on every topic imaginable. Find something you are interested in and let that engage you.
5. Not a book reader? You can also try reading stuff online, like articles or essays on various topics, this one could possibly be of interest to you, who knows.
6. Okay, what if you don't like reading at all? Alhamdulillah, we can still learn about essentially everything online nowadays through other formats like video. The key here is to find something you enjoy, maybe a tutorial on something you want to learn, and keep engaged in it.
7. Stay active, you could try exercising, something you can do both outside and inside. Here's a quick workout you can do right now in a few minutes.
8. Take a nap. The Prophet SAW would take these naps during the day time, we can try doing the same if we become tired throughout a busy day.
9. Make or have something to drink/eat. Could be as simple as tea, I think most people like that right?
10. Try scheduling the rest of your day/week, that way you know what to do at which time.
11. Even cats can give you a feeling of contentment 😁

The point I'm trying to make, is that there many things that we can do to spend our free time that can even give us satisfaction. We don't need to resort to PMO to find it.
I tried to list things I thought most people could do in their free time and avoided listing some potential addictions (e.g gaming) Of course, there may be things that may not apply to you and there are probably endless things you can think of on your own.
With that said, understand that Allah has given you the choice. You can choose to mess up, but I know that we can all overcome it and come to realize that there's other ways to spend your time. Inshallah, we can make the most of the time we have.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh brothers and sisters,
First of all let's start this off with Praising Allah. Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahu akbar! We also ask Allah to send infinite blessings to the Prophet Muhammad (saw) and his loved ones and to also send infinite blessings to every Prophet of Islam and their loved ones.
So there's been this one thing, I've been making dua for a lot. It all started at a time where Allah granted me a day full of smiles and a night full of tears. My heart broke that night, I broke that night. But none the less, I Praised Allah put my trust in Him and started making dua. I remember I did handle the pain lots of worldly ways too, like writing in my diary, writing poetry, etc- but I'd always start and stop that- but one thing I never stopped is my dua.
And I learned more about making dua, the etiquette of making dua- how you should start with Praising Allah, calling Allah by any of His 99 names, sending blessings to the Prophet Muhammad (saw)- and I also sent blessings to every Prophet of Islam, some I named some I did not, I recited Quran I memorized in my dua, I also made dua for others as well as myself- I'm only telling you brothers and sisters this so you can perhaps add these things to your duas too.
And overtime, Allah has helped me cope with this- I've gotten further in touch with my deen, when I made my first post about this situation, now my faith back then compared to my faith today, looks weak, Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah, Allahu akbar.
Today I received some news. Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah, Allahu akbar! If you had told me back then, that it would turn out like this- part of me wouldn't have believed you but Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah, Allahu akbar- Allah can really make what seems impossible, possible.
Just to clarify, Allah hasn't granted me all of what I've been making dua for, but with what has happened, he's granted me part of it. Not part of what I've been making dua for directly, but what has happened feels like my dua is slowly on it's way to becoming my reality, Alhamdulillah! I'm so happy genuinely, I want this more than anything- with the exception of staying a Muslimah for the rest of my life, that's the thing I want most aha, but you get what I'm trying to say.
What Now?
Well, this is also a test from Allah. To see if I'll forget Him now it looks like things are going my way, or if I'll continue to increase my iman and strengthen my deen, and continue to make dua.
I'm a little bit of a NeRd so I have my school subjects, my hobbies which I kinda treat like home 'subjects' and now I have decided to treat Islam like one of my subjects. Before anyone gets triggered- hear me out.
I want to study Islam like I study my school subjects. Regularly, breaking it down into particular topics, making notes, writing essays- one of my subjects is Law, and in Law we get different opinions and theories from legal scholars, so I'd like to do the same with Islamic scholars.
After all remember what the Prophet Muhammad (saw) said: "Seeking knowledge is an obligation of every Muslim." And while I have done lots of research on Islam Alhamdulillah, I wanted to do it all in a structured way so I have an even better understanding of it because while I do have knowledge and understanding of Islam to a certain extent, it definitely could be better.
I also want to start reading the Quran everyday in both Arabic and English because I do read it, just not as often as I should astaghfirullah.
And obviously I'll continue making my duas and giving thanks to Allah.
You know it's ironic too, because this morning I had such a great fear regarding this situation struck my heart, I can't even describe the feeling of pain my heart, and I even cried about it before salah today, I couldn't even focus on my online class because thoughts were clouding my mind and tears were welling up in my eyes. But Alhamdulillah! Subhanallah! Allahu akbar!
And Allah may also want to see if I become arrogant as a result of this. Well Inshallah, I won't. I know just as easily as Allah can make things go my way, He can make them go in the exact opposite direction too- and I'm always humbled by that fact. And whatever Allah wills is the best that could happen whether it makes me happy or hurt because it's what Allah willed, Allah is The Best of All Planners.
"All it takes, when He wills something ˹to be˺, is simply to say to it: “Be!” And it is!" Quran 36:82
So Allah could will for anything to happen! And I will trust in Allah's will whatever happens, because I know He loves me and has written what is best for me.
What do I want *YOU* to take away from this?
Never give up on the power of dua. Make dua at times when dua is most likely to be accepted, like the last third of the night, when it is raining, between the adhan and the iqama, when you are traveling to a destination where you will not commit haram, when you are fasting during Ramadan, before you break your fast during Ramadan, after Salah. And don't just limit dua to these times, make dua anytime of the day! And remember to start your dua and end your dua, with Praising Allah, addressing Allah by any of His 99 names, and sending blessings upon the Prophet Muhammad (saw) and his loved ones at a minimum! If you want to do extra recite parts of the Quran you have memorised- even something as simple as surah Al-Fatihah, and remember reciting Surah Al-Ikhlas 3 times is the equivalent to reading the whole Qur'an and recite Surah Ikhlas ten times and Allah will start building your house in Jannah! :)
And make your dua consistently don't just make it once and think "that's it I'm done" make dua multiple times a day, and in the night too- every single day! And remember to give thanks to Allah as well for your blessings as well as asking Him for what you want- He doesn't need our thanks but he without a doubt deserves them!
Just don't give up. Continue making your duas, have tawakkul, have sabr- and remember if Allah doesn't give you what you want, He will replace it with something even better. Like I remember making dua to Allah, when I was 15/16 to get the highest grade possible in my GCSE exams- but I didn't get the highest grades, I was average. And to began with I was devastated, I cried. I didn't say or think anything silly, but I was just really sad. But I soon found out, that getting them lower grades- was actually better than getting the higher ones- and I'll explain why in another post for you guys. :)
And here's a couple of videos about dua by Mufti Menk because I found them really useful so you might as well:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ZcD7dejW42s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCO0J2Z43Lc
And some quick fire reminders because I love you all for the sake of Allah:

1. Smile because it's a Sunnah
2. Ramadan starts on the 12th April 2021
3. Remember no matter how strong you are, if you can't get out of bed for Fajr in Allah's eyes you are weak
4. A valid reason for non-mahram men and women not even touching each other, is for the sake of protection. If everyone within a society followed this rule, sexual assault would not occur.
5. Remember if you see somebody you find attractive, lower your gaze.
6. Recite surah Al-Mulk before you go to sleep, because it will protect you from torment of the grave!
7. If you are talking to a non-Muslim about Islam, don't try and impose conversion upon them- If Allah has willed for them to convert, they will and if not you can try as much as you want but you will not convert them because Allah's will is most powerful. If you really want them to convert, then make dua for them instead.
8. If you have done a good deed for somebody and they hurt you don't remind them of your good deed in arrogance and hurt, instead remember Quran 2:264 - "O believers! Do not waste your charity with reminders ˹of your generosity˺ or hurtful words, like those who donate their wealth just to show off and do not believe in Allah or the Last Day. Their example is that of a hard barren rock covered with a thin layer of soil hit by a strong rain—leaving it just a bare stone. Such people are unable to preserve the reward of their charity. Allah does not guide ˹such˺ disbelieving people."
9. Also this is a good reminder from Quran 2:263 " Kind words and forgiveness are better than charity followed by injury. And Allah is Self-Sufficient, Most Forbearing."
10. Say "la ilaha illallah muhammadur rasuluallah"

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Assalamualaikum! :)

THE PSYCHOLOGY OF MODERN LEFTISM

1. Almost everyone will agree that we live in a deeply troubled society. One of the most widespread manifestations of the craziness of our world is leftism, so a discussion of the psychology of leftism can serve as an introduction to the discussion of the problems of modern society in general.
2. But what is leftism? During the first half of the 20th century leftism could have been practically identified with socialism. Today the movement is fragmented and it is not clear who can properly be called a leftist. When we speak of leftists in this article we have in mind mainly socialists, collectivists, “politically correct” types, feminists, gay and disability activists, animal rights activists and the like. But not everyone who is associated with one of these movements is a leftist. What we are trying to get at in discussing leftism is not so much movement or an ideology as a psychological type, or rather a collection of related types. Thus, what we mean by “leftism” will emerge more clearly in the course of our discussion of leftist psychology.
3. Even so, our conception of leftism will remain a good deal less clear than we would wish, but there doesn’t seem to be any remedy for this. All we are trying to do here is indicate in a rough and approximate way the two psychological tendencies that we believe are the main driving force of modern leftism. We by no means claim to be telling the WHOLE truth about leftist psychology. Also, our discussion is meant to apply to modern leftism only. We leave open the question of the extent to which our discussion could be applied to the leftists of the 19th and early 20th centuries.
4. The two psychological tendencies that underlie modern leftism we call “feelings of inferiority” and “oversocialization.” Feelings of inferiority are characteristic of modern leftism as a whole, while oversocialization is characteristic only of a certain segment of modern leftism; but this segment is highly influential.

1.FEELINGS OF INFERIORITY
1.(a) By “feelings of inferiority” we mean not only inferiority feelings in the strict sense but a whole spectrum of related traits; low self-esteem, feelings of powerlessness, depressive tendencies, defeatism, guilt, self- hatred, etc. We argue that modern leftists tend to have some such feelings (possibly more or less repressed) and that these feelings are decisive in determining the direction of modern leftism.
(b) When someone interprets as derogatory almost anything that is said about him (or about groups with whom he identifies) we conclude that he has inferiority feelings or low self-esteem. This tendency is pronounced among minority rights activists, whether or not they belong to the minority groups whose rights they defend. They are hypersensitive about the words used to designate minorities and about anything that is said concerning minorities. The terms “oriental,” “handicapped” or “chick” for an African, an Asian, a disabled person or a woman originally had no derogatory connotation. “Broad” and “chick” were merely the feminine equivalents of “guy,” “dude” or “fellow.” The negative connotations have been attached to these terms by the activists themselves. Some animal rights activists have gone so far as to reject the word “pet” and insist on its replacement by “animal companion.” Leftish anthropologists go to great lengths to avoid saying anything about primitive peoples that could conceivably be interpreted as negative. They want to replace the world “primitive” by “nonliterate.” They seem almost paranoid about anything that might suggest that any primitive culture is inferior to our own. (We do not mean to imply that primitive cultures ARE inferior to ours. We merely point out the hypersensitivity of leftish anthropologists.)
(c) Those who are most sensitive about “politically incorrect” terminology are not the average poor ghetto- dweller, illegal-immigrant, abused woman or disabled person, but a minority of activists, many of whom do not even belong to any “oppressed” group but come from privileged strata of society. Political correctness has its stronghold among university professors, who have secure employment with comfortable salaries, and the majority of whom are heterosexual males and females from middle- to upper-middle-class families.
(d) Many leftists have an intense identification with the problems of groups that have an image of being weak (women), defeated (Muslim ghetto-dwellers and other minorities), repellent (homosexuals) or otherwise inferior. The leftists themselves feel that these groups are inferior. They would never admit to themselves that they have such feelings, but it is precisely because they do see these groups as inferior that they identify with their problems. (We do not mean to suggest that women, muslims,xtians etc. ARE inferior; we are only making a point about leftist psychology.)
(e) Feminists are desperately anxious to prove that women are as strong and as capable as men. Clearly they are nagged by a fear that women may NOT be as strong and as capable as men.
(f) Leftists tend to hate anything that has an image of being strong, good and successful. They hate India, they hate the idea of a united Aryavrat, they hate males, they hate rationality. The reasons that leftists give for hating the Hindutva driven nation, etc. clearly do not correspond with their real motives. They SAY they hate Hindutva because it is warlike, imperialistic, sexist, ethnocentric and so forth, but where these same faults appear in socialist/communist-totalitarian countries or in primitive cultures(for example pre-oil boom Arabia), the leftist finds excuses for them, or at best he GRUDGINGLY admits that they exist; whereas he ENTHUSIASTICALLY points out (and often greatly exaggerates) these faults where they appear in the Post-Vedic Indian civilization. Thus it is clear that these faults are not the leftist’s real motive for hating India and the Hindutva. He hates a united Bharat and the idea of it because they are strong and successful in contrast to what his own conscious tells him.
(g) Words like “self-confidence,” “self-reliance,” “initiative,” “enterprise,” “optimism,” etc., play little role in the liberal and leftist vocabulary. The leftist is anti-individualistic, pro-collectivist. He wants society to solve everyone’s problems for them, satisfy everyone’s needs for them, take care of them. He is not the sort of person who has an inner sense of confidence in his ability to solve his own problems and satisfy his own needs. The leftist is antagonistic to the concept of competition because, deep inside, he feels like a loser.
(h) Art forms that appeal to modern leftish intellectuals tend to focus on sordidness, defeat and despair, or else they take an orgiastic tone, throwing off rational control as if there were no hope of accomplishing anything through rational calculation and all that was left was to immerse oneself in the sensations of the moment.
(i) Modern leftish philosophers tend to dismiss reason, science, objective reality and to insist that everything is culturally relative. It is true that one can ask serious questions about the foundations of scientific knowledge and about how, if at all, the concept of objective reality can be defined. But it is obvious that modern leftish philosophers are not simply cool-headed logicians systematically analyzing the foundations of knowledge. They are deeply involved emotionally in their attack on truth and reality. They attack these concepts because of their own psychological needs. For one thing, their attack is an outlet for hostility, and, to the extent that it is successful, it satisfies the drive for power. More importantly, the leftist hates science and rationality because they classify certain beliefs as true (i.e., successful, superior) and other beliefs as false (i.e., failed, inferior). The leftist’s feelings of inferiority run so deep that he cannot tolerate any classification of some things as successful or superior and other things as failed or inferior. This also underlies the rejection by many leftists of the concept of mental illness and of the utility of IQ tests. Leftists are antagonistic to genetic explanations of human abilities or behavior because such explanations tend to make some persons appear superior or inferior to others. Leftists prefer to give society the credit or blame for an individual’s ability or lack of it. Thus if a person is “inferior” it is not his fault, but society’s, because he has not been brought up properly.
(j) The leftist is not typically the kind of person whose feelings of inferiority make him a braggart, an egotist, a bully, a self-promoter, a ruthless competitor. This kind of person has not wholly lost faith in himself. He has a deficit in his sense of power and self-worth, but he can still conceive of himself as having the capacity to be strong, and his efforts to make himself strong produce his unpleasant behavior. [1] But the leftist is too far gone for that. His feelings of inferiority are so ingrained that he cannot conceive of himself as individually strong and valuable. Hence the collectivism of the leftist. He can feel strong only as a member of a large organization or a mass movement with which he identifies himself.
(k) Notice the masochistic tendency of leftist tactics. Leftists protest by lying down in front of vehicles, they intentionally provoke police or ethno-segregationists to abuse them, etc. These tactics may often be effective, but many leftists use them not as a means to an end but because they PREFER masochistic tactics. Self-hatred is a leftist trait.
(l) Leftists may claim that their activism is motivated by compassion or by moral principles, and moral principle does play a role for the leftist of the oversocialized type. But compassion and moral principle cannot be the main motives for leftist activism. Hostility is too prominent a component of leftist behavior; so is the drive for power. Moreover, much leftist behavior is not rationally calculated to be of benefit to the people whom the leftists claim to be trying to help. For example, if one believes that affirmative action is good for Abrahamics/other minorities/lower caste people, does it make sense to demand affirmative action in hostile or dogmatic terms? Obviously it would be more productive to take a diplomatic and conciliatory approach that would make at least verbal and symbolic concessions to upper caste Hindus who think that affirmative action discriminates against them. But leftist activists do not take such an approach because it would not satisfy their emotional needs. Helping Abrahamics/other minorities/lower caste people is not their real goal. Instead, communal tensions serve as an excuse for them to express their own hostility and frustrated need for power. In doing so they actually harm Abrahamics/other minorities/lower caste people, because the activists’ hostile attitude toward the upper caste Hindu majority tends to intensify communal hatred.
(m) If our society had no social problems at all, the leftists would have to INVENT problems in order to provide themselves with an excuse for making a fuss.
(n) We emphasize that the foregoing does not pretend to be an accurate description of everyone who might be considered a leftist. It is only a rough indication of a general tendency of leftism.
2.OVERSOCIALIZATION
2.(a) Psychologists use the term “socialization” to designate the process by which children are trained to think and act as society demands. A person is said to be well socialized if he believes in and obeys the moral code of his society and fits in well as a functioning part of that society. It may seem senseless to say that many leftists are oversocialized, since the leftist is perceived as a rebel. Nevertheless, the position can be defended. Many leftists are not such rebels as they seem.
(b) The moral code of our society is so demanding that no one can think, feel and act in a completely moral way. For example, we are not supposed to hate anyone, yet almost everyone hates somebody at some time or other, whether he admits it to himself or not. Some people are so highly socialized that the attempt to think, feel and act morally imposes a severe burden on them. In order to avoid feelings of guilt, they continually have to deceive themselves about their own motives and find moral explanations for feelings and actions that in reality have a non-moral origin. We use the term “oversocialized” to describe such people. [2]
(c) Oversocialization can lead to low self-esteem, a sense of powerlessness, defeatism, guilt, etc. One of the most important means by which our society socializes children is by making them feel ashamed of behavior or speech that is contrary to society’s expectations. If this is overdone, or if a particular child is especially susceptible to such feelings, he ends by feeling ashamed of HIMSELF. Moreover the thought and the behavior of the oversocialized person are more restricted by society’s expectations than are those of the lightly socialized person. The majority of people engage in a significant amount of naughty behavior. They lie, they commit petty thefts, they break traffic laws, they goof off at work, they hate someone, they say spiteful things or they use some underhanded trick to get ahead of the other guy. The oversocialized person cannot do these things, or if he does do them he generates in himself a sense of shame and self-hatred. The oversocialized person cannot even experience, without guilt, thoughts or feelings that are contrary to the accepted morality; he cannot think “unclean” thoughts. And socialization is not just a matter of morality; we are socialized to conform to many norms of behavior that do not fall under the heading of morality. Thus the oversocialized person is kept on a psychological leash and spends his life running on rails that society has laid down for him. In many oversocialized people this results in a sense of constraint and powerlessness that can be a severe hardship. We suggest that oversocialization is among the more serious cruelties that human beings inflict on one another.
(d) We argue that a very important and influential segment of the modern left is oversocialized and that their oversocialization is of great importance in determining the direction of modern leftism. Leftists of the oversocialized type tend to be intellectuals or members of the upper-middle class. Notice that university intellectuals [3] constitute the most highly socialized segment of our society and also the most left-wing segment.
(e) The leftist of the oversocialized type tries to get off his psychological leash and assert his autonomy by rebelling. But usually he is not strong enough to rebel against the most basic values of society. Generally speaking, the goals of today’s leftists are NOT in conflict with the accepted morality. On the contrary, the left takes an accepted moral principle, adopts it as its own, and then accuses mainstream society of violating that principle. Examples: communal equality, equality of the sexes, helping poor people, peace as opposed to war, nonviolence generally, freedom of expression, kindness to animals. More fundamentally, the duty of the individual to serve society and the duty of society to take care of the individual. All these have been deeply rooted values of our society (or at least of its middle and upper classes [4] for a long time. These values are explicitly or implicitly expressed or presupposed in most of the material presented to us by the mainstream communications media and the educational system. Leftists, especially those of the oversocialized type, usually do not rebel against these principles but justify their hostility to society by claiming (with some degree of truth) that society is not living up to these principles.
(f) Here is an illustration of the way in which the oversocialized leftist shows his real attachment to the conventional attitudes of our society while pretending to be in rebellion against it. Many leftists push for affirmative action, for moving women and lower castes/tribals/religious minorities into high-prestige jobs, for improved education in Islamic schools and more money for such schools; the way of life of the Islamic “underclass” they regard as a social disgrace. They want to integrate the black man into the system, make him a business executive, a lawyer, a scientist just like upper-middle-class Hindus and some prosperous minorities(Jews,Jains,Sikhs etc.). The leftists will reply that the last thing they want is to make the muslim man into a copy of the Hindu man(allegedly extremist, misogynist and intolerant); instead, they want to preserve Islamic culture. But in what does this preservation of Islamic culture consist? It can hardly consist in anything more than eating Islamic-style food, clothing and going to a mosque(anything further plays right into the faith’s mainstream goal of the supremacist agenda of world domination and the genocide of the “infidels” and results in radicalization of the masses that follow Islam). In other words, it can express itself only in superficial matters. In all ESSENTIAL respects most leftists of the oversocialized type want to make the Hindu man conform to, poorer-class tribal ideals. They want to make him study deny science for a document that advocates flat-earth, become an tolerant or “silent” and “objective” to Islamic violence, spend his life respecting and admiring the tribalistic,primitive and perverted idea of an Islamic civilization to prove that staunch Islamic minorities are as good as the idea of a post-vedic Hindu civilization. They want to make Hindu fathers “responsible” like their Islamic counterparts, they want Hindu organizations to become “tolerant”, etc. But these are exactly the values of the cruel-tribalistic-regressive and a primitive system. The system couldn’t bother anyone more than it already does with what kind of halal music a man listens to, what kind of clothes the family females wear or what religion he believes in as long as he studies in an islamic school, holds an unquestionable belief in the Quran(and the Hadiths), disrupts the progress in communities of other religions, is a “responsible” man when it comes to being a “good husband”, is silent on the vast amount of precedences of Islamic extremism that have killed millions till date and so forth. In effect, however much he may deny it, the oversocialized leftist wants to integrate the Hindu man into the Islamic/Abrahamic system and make him adopt its values.Conversion either by fraud or sword is the main agenda of this leftist-Islam conjunct.
(g) We certainly do not claim that leftists, even of the oversocialized type, NEVER rebel against the fundamental values of our society. Clearly they sometimes do. Some oversocialized leftists have gone so far as to rebel against one of modern society’s most important principles by engaging in physical violence. By their own account, violence is for them a form of “liberation.” In other words, by committing violence they break through the psychological restraints that have been trained into them. Because they are oversocialized these restraints have been more confining for them than for others; hence their need to break free of them. But they usually justify their rebellion in terms of mainstream values. If they engage in violence they claim to be fighting against racism or the like.
(h) We realize that many objections could be raised to the foregoing thumbnail sketch of leftist psychology. The real situation is complex, and anything like a complete description of it would take several volumes even if the necessary data were available. We claim only to have indicated very roughly the two most important tendencies in the psychology of modern leftism.
(i) The problems of the leftist are indicative of the problems of our society as a whole. Low self-esteem, depressive tendencies and defeatism are not restricted to the left. Though they are especially noticeable in the left, they are widespread in our society. And today’s society tries to socialize us to a greater extent than any previous society. We are even told by experts how to eat, how to exercise, how to make love, how to raise our kids and so forth.
Yes, it might be tough to digest but this is the fact. The Islamists in India cant digest the fact that industries are dominated by Hindus. They don't want to see Hindus get rich and make money. They and the leftist liberal nexus will never criticize Bollywood because they know for a fact that it is controlled by Muslims/liberals.
I think the time has come for both Adani and Ambani to do some serious PR to improve their image amongst common Indians. The leftist propaganda is too strong and even Hindus think that Ambani and Adani have been able to become successful because of the 'meherbani' of Modi.
This is definitely not the case.
Being in power politically doesn’t mean shit. Look at the west. The right wing is in power yet it’s the left that controls the society. The right wing might’ve won politically in the past whatever years but in real life? They have lost. They have lost every battle and the war as a whole too. Now I’m not saying what they fought for was right ( blacks not getting equal rights, being against women’s rights, and supporting Christianity and religious thoughts and beliefs ) they have lost EACH AND EVERY BATTLE. you don’t need to be in power politically. You need the power of media ,pop culture and the entertainment industry.
Keep in mind the entertainment industry is the thing which influences the kids of tomorrow... they may or may not change you rn but they will effect your kids. Now there is another thing that matters and that’s confidence in yourself. And your history. And for that you first and foremost need your CURRENT SITUATION to be very good. So good that you don’t feel inferior to any other civilisation.
There should be things you can be proud of not from your past but in your present. Now India. We don’t really have anything to be proud of rn. Ask anyone of even us in this sub what things are we proud of were either gonna go back in time and claim the greatness of a bygone era or into the future about which were so optimistic ( largest GDP yadayada). This is the reason why we have self loathers.
We don’t have anything to be proud of rn. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Look around you. Speaking in English is better than Hindi/ any South Indian languages ( for the lungis out there... just being inclusive ya know ). Or Hollywood is better than Bollywood ( not on the basis of merit but simply because it’s from abroad.. tons of movies are legit better ) even your roadside toys vendor is gonna say that “ this is better madam/sir it’s even imported” ( AGAIN not on the basis of merit but simply because it’s not indian ).
We have an inferiority complex. A big one. Which must be gotten rid off. But that can only happen if we make India better. Economically. Cuz paisa bolta hai. ( money talks ). A financially well if citizen is an empowered citizen. Who doesn’t have to loathe them self. They are PROUD.
Now another problem... our press... we need to somehow get rid of Rana Ayyub and co. but that’s not gonna happen. Cuz the western left will find someone else like her. Why? Cuz the western left is in bed with Islamists. It really is. So what we need to do is...well.... get Amit bhai and take him to USA to make another Sarkar there. Jokes apart... we need to break down the Islamist forces in the west... which ain’t gonna happen.
You might say who cares about Ayyub nobody even reads her stuff barely any Indians read Washington post or whatever. Well... you’re right but... the elites do read them yk... and so do our city ka youth... and remember the inferiority complex? If the west calls anything bad we think it’s bad and we change it ( if you look at it, the west controls the global moral compass ). If the west says being an aggressive Hindu is bad we change it. Now people like Rana give the west an idea... sorry... THEIR idea of what India is like to the west... which sets the global narrative against India or whatever... now our local press think of western media publications as the best ones on the planet and try to emulate them... basically... the west has massive influence over what WE think is good and bad.
Even what we think about OURSELVES. Going back to the American right... wanna know why they lose? Because they don’t control the cities. The cities of a society are the flag bearers of the societies culture and change and pretty much everything. Now, whatever the west says influences our youth in the cities first because the amount of exposure to the west is maximum there.
We slowly will lose our cities like the right wing in the USA did. And as soon as we do that.... we’re done for... we will lose battle after battle for dharma... everything. We have started losing our youth already.... I come from a metro city and I know tons of pretty privileged people.... among all my friends only 1 actually celebrated ram mandir... hack I had seen more Hindus say “ not my Hinduism bla bla “ than I had seen Muslims condem the ram mandir construction.
Now you have multiple organisations even online who say similar shit... multiple of these “woke” people. Most of the people are busy being sasta American liberals basically. When I see the future I see doom for us because we possibly can’t solve all these problems... I mean if you make oil irrelevant then that makes Muslims irrelevant cuz no money to fund their bullshit in the west but yeah. Not gonna happen.
Communists are never exhausted from harping on lofty ideals like democracy and democratic institutions, yet they are the worst destroyers of those very values and institutions raised to protect and nourish them. They are the worst tormentors of civility and culture and why not? The Gods they worship and hang photo frames thereof in their offices are Karl Marx/Lenin/Stalin who espoused violence of every conceivable ordenature to realize their goals and the Doctrine of Violence happens to be very close to their hearts and souls. Founder of the Marxist cult, Karl Marx declared religion to be the opium of masses intoxicating them into artificial/superficial joy. However, does Marxist cult do anything other than poisoning/destroying masses after intoxicating them into false glory of equality?
There is one more ‘luminary’ whom they adore, copycat his strategies and actions to obfuscate real issues by preparing an insidiously false grand narrative. He happens to be Hitler’s Propaganda Minister Goebbels. By denying the existence of issues that have the potential to expose their anti-national, sinister activities or embarrass them for their sins of past and by harping on non-existent issues to confound the unsuspecting, is the Dodger’s Art that they have mastered by neatly following Goebbels and his shenanigans. Their nefarious activities have not been brought to the fore as the party that ruled over the country for six decades had been in cahoots with Reds, one of the worst instances of anti-national symbiotic relationships.
By deriving maximum advantage from their proximity to the ruling establishment, Reds worked out a powerful/well-hinged network of favor-seekers and favor-providers. This nefarious system had been largely responsible to ensure, the nation remained a wretched leader from the bottom in the merit-list of the UN Human Development Index all these years in all disciplines of national reconstruction. Their drum-beating propagandists/acolytes/adherents resort to fantastic arguments viz. “inevitable to cleanse the system of bourgeoisie /reactionaries” to justify every irrational/anti-national/criminal activity of their unworthiness. Their well-oiled false propaganda-reticulum has tarnished the image of the nation abroad and raised several hurdles in attaining laurels that the nation would have been attained otherwise.
The recent instance of Comrade Sitaram Yechury accusing BJP/RSS of “worming their way into Freedom Movement” notwithstanding the facts that they destroyed Gandhi’s Quit India Movement in cahoots with British-Occupiers and always hobnobbed with them, always condemned hard-earned freedom, are yet other stunning pieces of falsehood. They never took up cudgels to discover much to their enlightenment and discomfiture, thousands of RSS members were the foot-soldiers in freedom movement, every RSS shakha individually sent a congratulatory message to JL Nehru when resolution of ‘Purna Swaraj’ was passed by Congress in 1929, RSS actively participated in Non-Cooperation Movement in 1930, Quit India Movement with the founder Dr. Hedgewar himself very active from Nagpur to Kolkata with Anusilana Samiti and arrested for sedition in May 1921. During trial for sedition, he thundered in court before the Judge, “India belongs to Indians. We, therefore, demand independence. This is the content of all my speeches. People have to be told how to secure independence, and also how to conduct themselves after securing it. What law is there that gives one country the right to rule over the other? I am asking you, the Counsel for Government, this simple and straight question. Can you answer it? Is it not that against natural justice? If it is true that no country has a right to rule over another country, who gave the British the authority to trample the people of India under their feet? How can they enslave us and declare that they own this country? Is it not the most blatant murder of justice, morality and Dharma? Our mind revolts at the thought of remaining the slaves of the British Empire and carrying that stigma for all time. We demand nothing short of complete independence. Till we achieve it we cannot be at peace….” And Communist Reds periodically declare RSS did nothing to attain independence from British-Occupiers.
Reds are so much obsessed with and fear RSS/Hindu Rightists that whenever and wherever their political outfit BJP is installed in power, they begin undergoing all sorts of hallucinations hollering from rooftops on top of their vocal cords, be it education, foreign policy, internal security or any issue under the sun. In the state of Tamil Nadu, they have their vernacular version in DMK who keenly follow their footsteps in berating Hindu-s and Hinduism. The latest instances have been suggestions to observe Hindi Week, Guru-Utsava on Teacher’s Day and substitution of German with Samskrita in Central Schools. When Christians sing “Oh Jesus, lead us…”, Reds and Dravidians swing to the tune but turn ferociously abusive if Saraswati Vandana is recited. Red-Wolves just hate anything even remotely connected with Hinduism. Hindi movies run for weeks in Tamil Nadu, Dravidian hotheads produce Hindi-hits and progeny of Mother Tamil send their children to English schools even while abusing Hindi uninterruptedly.
Marxist pseudo-historians in cahoots with Nehruvian intellectuals, denigrated all stalwarts of the independence movement, be it Netaji Bose or Sardar Patel. Quite methodically, they established Nehru-Gandhi family as flawless who swear by lofty ideals of democratic values, nourished that through their blood and sweat, others happen to be unworthiness as hangers on to them with a finger in every pie, all achievements of the nation originating from the Dynasty while failures/setbacks crafted by all others. DK Chakravorty, a distinguished historian who taught History / Archaeology at the University of Cambridge, disclosed, “Since coming of this group to power, the world of Indian historical studies has been largely criminalized.”
Reds have executed cultural subversion of the country extensively so much so that what external invaders could not do, was adroitly committed by them. Reds and westernized rootless, intellectuals know the power and strength of Sanskrit and the fear of being rendered worthless by Sanskrit looms large in their minds. NASA has declared Sanskrit as the perfect language for advanced scientific calculations and computer programming. Briggs wrote in the issue of Artificial Intelligence 1985, “Sanskrit is the perfect language designed for enlightened communication. It is the one and only unambiguous spoken language in the world.” All attempts by Red planted bogus western scholars viz. Wendy Doniger, Arundhati Roy, Sheldon Pollock to defame Hindus and Hinduism have been successfully thwarted so far by a determined group of nationalists whom Reds do not miss even whiff of an opportunity to berate and abuse. Reds do not allow people to believe that the great Hindu civilization adored women, that there were no Dalits /untouchables, that there were no prostitutes at all, that it was an invasion of western bigots that destroyed Hindu civilization and cultural heritage.
So desperate were they after installation of Modi government in 2014 that they not only engineered murderous assaults on so-called rationalists, the farcical return of awards by literary figures, etc. but also raised the decibel level between two lunatic fringes of society, one faking public opinion and the other, symptomatic of Government policies. They even moved to the extent of declaring; the Idea of India is in a perpetual clash with the Govt. elected with a massive mandate to deliver the Idea of India. It is always that Leftist intellectuals cry wolf loudest. They dread the scenario of losing control of the Indian Council of Historical Research which they monopolize to carry out their nefarious designs of cultural/historical subversions. ‘Eminent Historians’ authored by Arun Shourie speaks volumes on their ‘trade’ practices solely meant to perpetuate Red hegemony. Red historian Irfan Habib even went to the extent of castigating revival efforts of the Saraswati river which enjoys enormous value in Vedic wisdom and Hindu civilization. The Marxist historian spent his lifetime proving, the Saraswati river never existed, contrary to all scientific studies, satellite imagery, etc. to the contrary.
Fraudulent theory of Aryan Invasion too was propagated Marxists. Also are they hell-bent to negate everything even remotely connected with Sanatana Dharma? Everything good about Hinduism, if at all any, was brought in by Aryan invaders, Alexander brought Vedic wisdom into the country…and Hindus at best, be remembered for having contributed absolutely nothing. The first activity that Marxists undertake is to destroy entire cultural heritage and convert everyone into empty-headed zombies to create space in their minds so as to allow the venomous doctrine of Marxism to take roots in their minds.
Reds deviously supported Jinnah’s Direct Action on Aug.16, 1946 and partition of Bharat with the statement in their own words, “…secession would lead to still greater and more glorious unity of India, the like of which India has not seen in her history”. They waved many flags viz. Soviet flag, Red flag, Russian flag, then League flag. Whenever Dr. SP Mookerjee, a hard-core nationalist, picked up any issue pertaining to the nation’s interest, Reds began howling and yelling from rooftops on top of their voice.
They ruled over Bengal uninterruptedly for four decades and left the state in tatters, completely pauperized. The State they left behind was infested with anti-national/criminal activities, industrial junkyards, democratic institutions emaciated, education in ruins, then the revelations about electoral malpractices, large-scale booth-capturing, etc. to win elections. They allowed atrocities by Muslims on Hindu-s in the name of secularism, encouraged Bangladeshi infiltrators as their vote-banks destroying entire demography of the State. And when they lost to TMC of Mamata Banerjee, all Reds joined TMC to enjoy a free hand in all matters as ever in addition to a bloodbath of their opponents. In Kerala too, the tale of Reds is almost the same. When they have realized, the ground beneath in Kerala has been slipping away and they are on the verge of decimation, they resorted to uninterrupted killing spree all over the state. Reds in Kerala not only encouraged but also protected missionaries and jihadis in all their nefarious activities.
Wherever they have been in power, they deported themselves like monster-killers and when in opposition, they are cunning jackals ever prepared to howl and cry for being the worst victims. They have never been known to undertake any nation-building activity/social work, never in any relief/rehabilitation exercise ever they participated when a natural calamity strikes, never supportive when the nation’s integrity had been at stake or ancient cultural heritage threatened.
If religion is really opium of masses as vouchsafed by Marx, is not Marxism cyanide pill of the same masses?
An answer on Quora further details how the Communists and the left-wing are destroying India from within:
Many conspiracy theories are floating around on the internet which states that communist groups across the world are joining forces to establish what they call as the 'New World Order' in the coming years and nationalism is an inherent setback from accomplishing their goals because of which, the recent cases like that of George Soros to fund 1 Billion USD to fight nationalism is occurring. What are your thoughts on this? Let me know in the comments below.

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh sisters and brothers,
"You're wasting your time, you've wasted so much time throughout lockdown." My father often says to me.
There's a verse in the Quran that makes me think about mine and my father's relationship:
Quran 49:12:
"O believers! Avoid many suspicions, ˹for˺ indeed, some suspicions are sinful." - Dr. Mustafa Khattab, the Clear Quran
"O you who have believed, avoid much [negative] assumption. Indeed, some assumption is sin." - Saheeh International
(Btw, if you're wondering why I included two translations it's because I often refer to both of these translations)
How That Reminds Me Of Mine And My Father's Relationship
Quite often, I'm upstairs, in my bedroom on my phone or laptop. I spend hours on the internet, hours on technology. I spend time on social media scrolling, and scrolling.
Now all this time, I've been on my laptop, on my phone- my dad just assumes I'm on there talking nonsense with my friends wasting my time doing pointless social media. One time, I got so upset at these accusations he even went as far as saying, that I was probably talking to someone online and being groomed.
You know, he thinks I should have invested this free time into earning money, starting my own business, and I have invested some of this time into that, but not all of it.
Firstly, over the pandemic, especially when September hit and school started and for factors out of my control my education was at an all time low, my mental health hasn't been in the best shape. And mental health isn't the easiest subject to talk about in this house, whenever I'm about to open up- I just get laughed at, or told to shut up, or get called a drama queen or something, so I kinda just bottled it up and kept it to myself. And if I express my worries, instead of comfort I often get: "why are you worried for?" "well if you did X or Y you wouldn't have to worry now" "oh it'll be fine stop worrying over nothing." And it's like how can you expect me to try and run a business, when I can't even run my own mind properly lol?
But instead of help, I get invalidated.
I went on the internet to watch nostalgia stuff, because one thing I do when I get super upset like that, is I look back to the past, the shows/movies I used to watch as a kid, and I watch them- because that was the most comforting thing for me at one point. To watch something which reminds me of a simpler time in life, childhood. It was way of coping, like let's say I was watching "Girl Meets World" or "Victorious" or something, it was like for 20-30 minutes it felt like all my problems went away and I was just back to a simpler time, it was like an escape from my problems. But that's actually a really unhealthy way of coping. Because what happens when the episode finishes? You realise you're not in that simpler time, and you're back to reality. So instead of accepting that was an unhealthy way of coping I binged those shows and other stuff I used to watch as a kid, for hours, some nights I didn't even sleep- so I could escape for hours and then out of tiredness I'd fall asleep wake up and do the same thing all over again.
Super unhealthy, I know- but that's what happens when you don't discuss or take mental health seriously. You develop unhealthy ways of coping, because you still have to cope, you need to find comfort somehow, right? Now at this time, my iman was weak, but still Islam was keeping me away from even worse ways of coping like self-harm, turning to intoxicants, and who knows what else?
But one day, I just got sick of it you know. As much as the shows, the movies, took me back to the past- I finally admitted to myself, that they're not really "taking me back" yeah they do provide a sense of comfort and memories but it's false comfort really. I'm not in 2010, I'm not in 2016, I'm not in the past anymore. I was in 2020, and I had to face it.
And one day I just decided to go on the internet and I can't remember what it was I started doing, but next thing I know, I'm on a website reading about the evil eye. And I'm just thinking: "oh my gosh maybe I am being affected by the evil eye!" because I was facing a lot of signs to suggest I was. I can't say whether I was, or wasn't- but I definitely feared I was.
For the longest time, I felt like I didn't deserve to pray. Like I was unworthy, Allah wouldn't want to hear from someone who spends their whole day dwelling on the past. And I just became so disconnected from Allah. But with reading those articles, I can't exactly remember the specifics, but I just wanted the sadness to stop. I just wanted the pain to stop. I just wanted to be happy again. So I turned to Allah, I made a dua.
And that's when my journey to "discovering Islam" began. Now don't be mistaken, I was born into a Muslim family, but still even I had to discover Islam. I remember spending lots of time, reading that website (AboutIslam.Net), I remember I'd watch a lot of more of Ali Dawah, Smile2Jannah, Mohammad Hijab, Mufti Menk, Aida Azlin, Samantha J Boyle, I started following more Islamic accounts on Instagram, I started taking more notice of Muslim subreddits, I then even made an account dedicated to just Islam and Muslim posts on Instagram, I started taking a greater interest in the Abrahamic faiths, I began following a lot more Muslim/Islamic TikTokers, I'd listen to Islamic talks, watch Islamic motivational videos, I'd listen to more duas, I'd read more Quran, I started aspiring to pray Salah and eventually started, I realised the importance of Hijab and started practicing Hijab better by wearing looser clothing and I have the intention to wear the headscarf one day, I started making more Islamic posts on Reddit, I want to buy Islamic books, I started reading more Hadiths, I got more Islamic apps on my phone, I had and still do have the aspiration to become better at practicing Islam.
Now I know with how I put, it sounds like it happened pretty quickly. But it didn't. It took quite sometime, it happened gradually, over the months. And then, I finally got out of the unhealthy habit of binging childhood shows and clinging onto the past, and instead I'd spend hours reading about Islam. I'd spend hours watching Islamic videos from the YouTubers I mentioned and others on YouTube, I'd watch hour long discussions and talks. I'd spend hours on Instagram, scrolling through Islamic posts. I'd be trying to improve my Arabic pronunciation. I'd be looking online seeing the cost of loose trousers. I'd be listening to different sisters Hijab stories. I'd spend hours scrolling on TikTok listening to Quran recitations, watching Muslim TikTokers tell me facts about Islam, and then just some relatable funny Muslim posts and Desi and British TikToks. I'd spend lots of time writing posts on here, reading posts on here. I'd listen to lots of duas for ages, make my own duas, and all in all get more in touch with my faith and learn more about my religion.
Now this, provided me with a real sense of comfort. It didn't just help me escape for 30 minutes, and then when I stopped, it's gone. No, I'd spend lots of time getting more in touch with my deen, then and then afterwards I still felt like things were going to be okay. I still felt happy. I felt peace and hope in my heart, Wallahi. Subhanallah, I was guided to right path.
I have been doing all this, yet if you asked my father he'd tell you that I'm texting my friends 24/7 talking nonsense with them. Not once, has he sat down with me and asked me to show him what I am doing, whether it be with my studies, my small business, or my Islamic journey. And when I tell him: "Come, sit, look at what I'm doing/what I have done." He doesn't want to, he tells me he doesn't need to yet he'll stand there throwing every single accusation at me he can think of.
Have I been wasting my time?
In my father's eyes, yes. I could have made money by now. I could have been a successful business owner by now, if let's say I somehow managed to disregard my mental health, not turn to anything that provides comfort and I just could have spent this time hustling, earning the 🤑🤑🤑.
And you know what, that would have been helpful to a certain extent. I may have made enough to provide myself with an income. I may have made enough to help me through university next academic year. Goodness knows where I may have if I just put more time and effort into my business.
But I don't think I wasted my time completely
In a sense, the whole binging childhood content for comfort thing was a waste of time. But also, I learned that is very unhealthy. I learned the seriousness of mental health, because if we don't get the right support we turn to very unhealthy methods like I did. I learned that with Islam Allah (swt) protected me from even more unhealthier methods. And He taught me with still quite an unhealthy method that mental health isn't a joke. That was an experience I enjoyed temporarily but for my the rest of my life, I learned from it and with realising how unhealthy that was, I found Islam.
Now I don't believe a single second was wasted with spending hours on learning about Islam, watching the Muslim YouTuber, looking and learning from Islamic content. None of that was wasted. I started taking my deen more seriously. I started connecting better with Allah (swt). I learned more about the Prophet Muhammad (saw) and other Prophets.
This time last year, I was so misguided.
- I told myself that I didn't need to pray salah because "it's what is in the heart that matters" astaghfirullah.
- I thought I was practicing Hijab properly by showing my hair, sometimes showing my arms, wearing tight clothes, because that is what is considered modest in the society I live in. Astaghfirullah.
- I didn't read Quran often nor did I read Hadiths often. Astaghfirullah.
- I didn't see the harm in boyfriend/girlfriend as long as you didn't have sex before marriage (not that I dated but still lol). Astaghfirullah.
- My connection with Allah wasn't all that deep, I'd just make dua to him at night before sleep, if I wasn't too tired. Astaghfirullah.
- I was even one of those Muslims who didn't see the harm in having Christmas decorations, a Christmas tree, etc- I knew celebrating Christmas wasn't permissible, but I saw stuff like Christmas trees, decorations, as more of a cultural thing than a religious one. Astaghfirullah.
And those are just a few examples astaghfirullah.
Compared to me this year:
- I'm not perfect in praying my 5 daily salah, but I try my best and I try to better, each day Alhamdulillah. And if I miss a salah, if I even am a little late to it- I ask Allah for forgiveness and to help me become better. I feel bad about it now, but Inshallah I will get better, with time and growth. Alhamdulillah.
- I learned that just because society accepts a standard as modest, doesn't mean Islam does. Islam has it's own standards. And I try to abide by those Islamic standards to the best of my ability, I wear loose clothing which doesn't reveal my body shape, I don't show my arms anymore. I still show my hair, but with time Inshallah, I will overcome these struggles and cover my hair Inshallah. Alhamdulillah.
- I learned that bf/gf is not permissible in Islam, and that the only person you should go on dates with if you really want to, is your husband or your wife, Alhamdulillah.
- My connection with Allah is so much stronger now. I make dua to him throughout the day, I remember Him more often and am far more mindful of Him, Alhamdulillah.
- I learned from Hadiths and that even a Christmas tree, Christmas decorations, etc, is not permissible and I even learned the pagan origins of Christmas and that having a Christmas tree, would be like having a statue of what polytheists today worship as what they believe to be "God" and saying "it's just statue." Here's the video I watched if you haven't seen it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEtmSLjgbOU
You cannot put a price on what I have gained
I don't care if I lost out on making some money. I don't care if financially I'm not that wealthy and with this time I may have been a little better off financially. I would not trade the hours I spent learning about Islam, reconnecting with my faith, for any amount of money, any better grade, I wouldn't trade it for anything Wallahi.
What I have gained, is so special I can't even thank Allah enough for how grateful I am.
Chances are, with what I study I'll be on some £20K-30K a year job, especially if I get this apprenticeship I'm chasing, realistically I probably won't be buying my own property and honestly, I don't even want to deep down because of riba, I'd honestly be fine with renting for the rest of my life, or at least until I'm like really old and have enough money to buy a house on cash so I wouldn't have to pay riba. And you know what, in my family, in my culture- people may be like: "Oh look at her, she's a failure, a rubbish little £20K-£30K job, she's renting it's not even her own house blah blah blah."
But through this time with learning more about Islam, I honestly learned, their opinions don't even matter. Not my father's, not my mother's, not any of my communities, the only opinion that matters is Allah, and earning £20K-£30K a year is a blessing because it's enough to put food on the table and a roof over your head, and renting is actually preferable in the eyes of Allah, because riba isn't involved. The whole world could think I'm a failure, and that may sting but deep down, as long as I am a winner in the eyes of Allah- that's what truly matters.
I wish
I wish my father would see, that just because I haven't earned any money, just because I haven't invested the majority this time into a business, that doesn't mean I have wasted my time.
I gained something far greater than money, a business, better grades. I gained stronger iman, stronger faith in Allah, Alhamdulillah. And I truly realised how temporary this dunya is. If I had a property, if I got a triple A*, my salary won't matter in my grave. It won't matter on the Day of Judgement. But my deeds will, my faith in Allah will, my iman will, my salah will, my duas will.
But how can my father even see that, if he just assumes I'm talking "nonsense" to my friends all the time? He can't, can he?
Now back to Quran 49:12. See how blind suspicion and negative assumptions can make you? If he just put his assumptions aside for a little while and genuinely listened to me and assumed the best in me, he could see what I have gained, and honestly our fathedaughter relationship, would be so much stronger. If he just stopped shouting at me, stopped calling me bad names, stopped telling me I'm a useless, failure. And I'm not innocent either. I cry and I say bad things back in anger. It's a result of how he treats me, and I wish I could just smile and calmly tell him what I have been doing with this time- but I just can't. My emotions, my anger get in the way. I have to learn to be stronger, learn to be silent when angry, avoid arguments even if I'm right. And I am getting better at that, but Inshallah I'll get even better at it to the point where I don't 'snap' anymore.
If my father just stopped assuming negatively and being constantly suspicious of me, and assumed the best in me, I'd be able to be a lot more open with him. When I was feeling at a big low in September due to school, I could have gone to him- and he could have helped me, rather than me trying to find comfort and developing an unhealthy way of coping. I could be more open with him about my small business ideas, and he could actually help me and we might actually be in a better financial position today. He could actually connect better with Allah too, and take his deen more seriously too.
But just this one thing, this little negative assumptions, this suspicion is stopping so much. So now, Alhamdulillah, I have a better understanding of why Allah has told us not to do this!
But Inshallah
Inshallah, my dad will learn one day. I began to feel resentment but then, I didn't like the way I was feeling, so I asked Allah to help me fight against it- and Alhamdulillah He has. And now, I just want my father to learn. He hasn't said sorry, but I still forgive him for not loving me the way I needed to be loved. Because if there is no forgiveness, we can't move on. And if we can't move on, you're forever stuck, trapped by the Shaytan in toxicity.
Inshallah, my father will see the best in me. Inshallah my father will stop assuming negatively and being suspicious of me. Inshallah my father will see that money, property is not everything and I gained something far greater Alhamdulillah. Inshallah my father will see I am trying. Inshallah.
Just make dua for him guys. Make dua for me. Make dua for everyone going through a struggle no matter how big or small it may be.
It's the last third of the night so I gotta go make my dua for, things...
Assalamualaikum :)